I heard something on a tv show the other night, and it rings so much truth in my life right now.
"When we become older, we become invisible. We become insignificant."
That is where I am. I am so thankful I have friends.....and sweet new neighbors that love me and care for me and actually SEE me.
Lord....my heart breaks. I know you are enough. But oh how it hurts my heart so bad. Please help heal my heart.
September 14th.....somebody so precious was born on this day - 74 years ago.
I am so thankful for the gift of you Michael Lane Corley. I have had the blessing of celebrating 50 birthdays with you! We have been through so many mountain tops and a few valley's too....but I wouldn't want to ride this journey with anyone but you.
The sweet little couple next door ask me for marriage advice often. They have two tiny kids and life is kinda hard right now. I just tell them.....ride it out. There have been some times when I think we both would have walked away.....but WE STAYED. Thank you for staying. Thank you for never giving up. Thank you for seeing the good in me.....but also seeing the ugly and loving me anyway.
You are precious to me Michael. My love, my best friend, my rock, my partner in crime =), the one who knows me best - warts and all.....you are just the sweetest gift ever.
I hope and I pray we have many more years to celebrate....birthdays, anniversaries - kids, grands, and greats.....this sweet life that God has given us.
I love you Michael. Thank you for loving me like you do. Thank you for sharing this crazy, mixed up life with me. Thank you for letting me be your "woman child".....forever and a day sweet man.
It's hard to understand.....looking back, and that's the hardest thing to do - things were so different.
I find change hard. Mike Breaux has spoken recently, referring to our new life in Christ, about a "new normal". My life in Christ IS my new normal. Goodness how He has changed my life in the last few years. And He tells me in His word that HE is enough. HE is my rock solid. HE is all that I need. I need that tattooed on my body where I see it every single day. Because life hurts. I can't get away from the hurt. It's one thing when it's people - but when it's family.....it's heartbreaking.
This thing with our dysfunctional family - I just don't get it. I have tried my best to realize it's a new normal there too. But this is hard. We are just an obligation.
Help me Jesus....help me just dwell on You.....not on the missing family times....the missing sharing, the missing giving a care. Help me walk with YOU Jesus....and realize our new normal. Help me not compare our relationships with our family to those of our friends. It's just not there and I can't make it there. As the song says, "I can't make you love me"......
YOU are enough Jesus. YOU ARE. Help me walk forward with that.
