It's hard to understand.....looking back, and that's the hardest thing to do - things were so different.
I find change hard. Mike Breaux has spoken recently, referring to our new life in Christ, about a "new normal". My life in Christ IS my new normal. Goodness how He has changed my life in the last few years. And He tells me in His word that HE is enough. HE is my rock solid. HE is all that I need. I need that tattooed on my body where I see it every single day. Because life hurts. I can't get away from the hurt. It's one thing when it's people - but when it's family.....it's heartbreaking.
This thing with our dysfunctional family - I just don't get it. I have tried my best to realize it's a new normal there too. But this is hard. We are just an obligation.
Help me Jesus....help me just dwell on You.....not on the missing family times....the missing sharing, the missing giving a care. Help me walk with YOU Jesus....and realize our new normal. Help me not compare our relationships with our family to those of our friends. It's just not there and I can't make it there. As the song says, "I can't make you love me"......
YOU are enough Jesus. YOU ARE. Help me walk forward with that.
