Sunday, January 14, 2018

two more little things.....

i just remembered two more little things that i want to remember....

Shawn was home from bible school....they made these little churches out of cardboard and he said it was for his offering - then he asked me what offering was. I tried to explain how we give money to God through the church.....and how that money goes from the church to help others. We have talked many times about God and heaven and Jesus - and after my explanation, he goes back into his room very satisfied with the answer. In just a bit, he comes back in the living room with his little church in his hands.....and he tells me "momma, he dropped it!" - i said "What?" and he tells me again, "He DROPPED it!" I notice that his little church has pennies in it.....and then i realize what he's done. He went into his room, put the pennies into his little cardboard church and he held it up to heaven.....he was giving HIS money to God through his little church....and he let go! Oh to have the faith of a child!

Another time i was picking up glasses at an optical place.....i had three year old Shawn with me and he was cute as cute could be.....and never met a stranger. As we walked in, a lady waiting too struck up a conversation with him.....he just talked away....well, he kept talking....and she began to write in her checkbook and wasn't giving Shawn the attention he was so he got up on the couch beside her....he inched as close to her as he could and he looked up at her and said "just fine.....and how are you?" -


2018 - Christmas Tree is down and neatly put away.....the house looks bare without all the decorations - a new word.  BREATHE.

My small bible study group has decided to choose a word to focus on in 2018.  It's something Marsha, our leader, has done for years now.  I think this is a good idea!  Since starting this bible Study.....Since i saw you last (aka SISYL) i have grown leaps and bounds in my relationship with the Lord.  I struggled with choosing my word.  I mean this is a word for the entire year.  I even downloaded a book on choosing my word.

The word i kept coming back to - less - less of me, less chaos, less busy, less technology, less insecurity, less negativity - but then i couldn't have less without another word....more....more of HIM, more quiet, more one on one relationships, more patience, more confidence in being the daughter of a KING!  So then i ran across the word "Breathe" - and i thought about it.....breathing in all the gifts God offers me....breathing in HIM - through study and prayer and just talking with Him as my day progresses.....Breathing in serenity, gentleness....all those fruits of HIS Spirit....and exhale....just letting all the crummy stuff out of my body....out of my life.  So my word for 2018 is BREATHE.....i hope i can actually focus on this word and be reminded when i take that deep breath that i am HIS daughter and i can be more and more like Him as i breath in big huge breaths of all He is and all He has for me in the life - and the next.  The picture?  This is Lake Moraine.....the most beautiful place i have ever seen - It was on our trip to Canada - a trip i have longed to share with Michael since before we were's close to one of my favorite cities ever....Banff - but this place....this place must be like heaven.  i literally stood in awe and cried as i took in the beauty, the smells, the experience.  BREATHE in cindy.....BREATHE in His goodness and grace.

This is our little group.....growing together in Christ....being there for one another through thick and thin.  Such a blessing this group....such a gift.

Then there's this man.....oh the places we will go.  I hope.  I pray.  I pray that in this 2018, Michael and i will grow closer and closer as we deepen our relationship with our Savior.  We've been through a lot.....45 years this coming March.  Most happy times, but some really tough times too.  I pray that this coming year will be a healthy year for us.....a year of exploring, growing, BREATHING in God's sweetness, together as ONE.

This year i pray our family can grow some roots down deep.  For the past year or so....maybe longer....changes have taken place in the relationships within our family.  Some good and some i am not crazy about at all.  I will continue to pray and i just hope in 2018, the air can be cleared and our hearts can be drawn together and roots be deepened.  BREATHE......EXHALE.....and pray.  Prayer changes things.  This is my prayer for 2018....that our family can come together, face to face, much more often....that the elephant in the room - well, God i pray You just send him away forever - and that we can truly appreciate the gift we have in each other, in this precious gift of each other.  Lord heal my's broken into a million pieces.

So BREATHE Cindy....BREATHE in big huge breaths of God....of His mercy and grace.....of all the gifts He gives....EXHALE the negative, the insecurities, the hurt....and oh Lord it's so hard for me sometimes.  I can't do has to be YOU.  Please be my my portion Lord.  YOU are enough....YOU are everything to me.  I love You SO much....i need You SO praise to YOU dear Lord.

1 John 3:17-18 Help me be a blessing.

Thursday, November 23, 2017

This day....

Thanksgiving Day 2017.  It hasn't been the best one - Michael is sick and it's sure been a long haul.  We were really looking forward to a little getaway - just the two of us - to Branson MO.  We had a three night stay already paid for in the most beautiful place - Chateau on the Lake - and it was over the top beautiful with a brook running through the entire place - decorated for Christmas like hotel, 5 star.  We broke up the drive there by going to see Annette and Bill and spending the night with them in Pine Ridge.  We had a great visit and then off for the 4 hour drive to Branson.  We got there late afternoon, showered, dressed and went down to the bar for wine - ended up ordering dinner there because it was just so peaceful and beautiful.  About 1:30 in the morning, Michael woke up sick....really sick.  His first words to me "Please don't be mad at me" - i couldn't understand why in the world?  He said "I'm Sick!" - i know he must feel like every vacation, he comes down sick - but it's not his fault!  Well, sick went to worse and worse.  He stayed in the room the entire stay - and we were both hoping he would get over it.  In the deep part of my heart though, i was so afraid it wasn't just a bug....i didn't get it and i totally should have with shared drinks, kisses and all....but as i was packing the car to leave, he asked me to ask about a Care Now close by....long story short, we ended up in the ER and admitted to the hospital.  He had a small bowel blockage.  We were there for 3 nights and then the LONG drive home.  That was 4 days ago....and he's still so sick.  We can't see a doc for a week.....i just don't know if we can wait that long.  He's so sick.

But this day....we are headed to Frisco shortly to spend it with our precious family.  I guess i am getting old....but "things" just aren't important anymore.....the commercialization of Christmas - ALREADY - can you say even in SEPTEMBER? - is really making me sick.  That seems to be all it is now.  People running crazy, buying buying buying.....forgetting all about the sweet baby we celebrate.  This day.....this day i am SO thankful for my family.  Relationships are what matters most. First of all, that relationship we have with Christ.....i pray that so hard for everyone in my family....hold Him close you's what we are made for!  Second my relationship with my sweet hubby and my family.....and my friends.  God i thank You this day ....and always....for the precious family you put me in.....and since then the ones You have placed in my life.  Oh how i would love to go back with a do-over....knowing what i know now.  Goodness, i wasted time.  Goodness, i missed moments and opportunities.  The fast pace of life, the yearnings for "things" - robbed me of so much.  This day i purpose to live and lean into the moment.....thankful for every blessed day You give me.  I purpose to appreciate EACH one in my family and my friends too Lord....realizing, that each one is a gift from YOU.  Thank You Lord for my Michael....i pray so hard Lord Jesus that You will place Your mighty healing hands on him and heal his body now.  It is the desire of my heart Lord.

Thank You Jesus....for this day.  Thank You for calling my name and keeping me close.  You are my amazing Father.....creator of my heart - Author of my story.  Help me magnify You with all i have and all i am Lord.  I love You.

Thursday, May 25, 2017

just checking in....

Haven't written in a while....just checking in.  It's been a whirlwind few months!  Totally gutted the kitchen and did all new.....also new paint and tall baseboards, crown in the living, dining, hallway, sunroom.  Looks really good and feel SO good.  Heath and Fox Chase were really show places.....and we bought them mostly for the family - the kids.  Had to have a pool.....lots of big show.  With both the kids having pools now - our house wasn't the draw it used to be.  With their busy schedules and sports and work etc, coming to spend weekends had kinda come to an end too.  So this house is a HOME.  No pool, just comfortable and the VIEW.....the VIEW.  LOVE LOVE LOVE the lake view.....and LOVE LOVE LOVE this neighborhood.  The Gillilands, across the alley, such a sweet surprise.  New friends.  We take turns having each other over for dinner - then there's the "Lane" thing going on.....just a sweet surprise!  Thank you Lord.....sweetest gifts you give us and this home is one of them.  Also, the view - thank you for that view.  It reminds me each and every day of Your majesty.

The kids are doing SO good....their careers are taking off like gang busters.  I miss them though.  Because of all the work, the many hats they wear - we don't see them often.  Makes me so sad.  But i remember.....i remember those days and just how busy they are.  I totally understand....just trying now to find a way to get us all under one roof at least a couple of times a month.  I think they are all in....just hope we can make it happen now.

School is almost out.  Haley is already home and now back in Oklahoma for the summer....working and taking classes.  Wishing i had contacted her sooner.....wanted to take her shopping for her new place.  Hopefully she will be home soon for a visit and we can go.....a mini "Camp Mimi".  Addy and Avery are ready for summer.  Addy was invited to play in a tourney in Florida in a couple of weeks.....with a team she's hoping to join.  Such a great opportunity!  She's so talented....has no idea of just how talented she is.  Praying for her confidence.  Love that she's so humble.....but praying she will be stronger and more confident as she learns more and more from the new coaching.  Avery is working so hard on art work.....getting ready for Booker T next year.  So proud of her for getting in.  God has really gifted that sweet girl.  Can't wait to see what plans He has for her.  I pray so hard her heart will soften toward Him - that she will come to know PERSONALLY His saving grace.  Hayden.....oh my goodness, that sweet boy.  He's done really SO well in school....he's learned so much.  His teacher was just perfect.  He played baseball pitch.  Cannot believe how much better he did this past season.  Angie is taking him to a chiropractor and it's helping him - his gait when he runs has improved tons.  He's hitting the ball well too.  Such a cutie pie.  Audrey and Todd.....doing GREAT.  Todd has started a new business with a friend and they are doing great.  Audrey is the best little momma ever.  That little boy has turned her heart upside down and i just see such a healing in Audrey.  I see REAL JOY, i HEAR REAL JOY......just such a turnaround for Audie and answered prayer for her sweet life.  Hopefully we will have a wedding in the near future.  They seem to be so happy.  And then there's Matthew.....oh my gosh, that boy melts my heart.  He's is just adorable.....and he can say "Mimi" and Papa" - and just melts me on the spot.  He's so happy.....soooooo precious.  Can't wait to see what God has planned for that sweet one's life!

Just blessed.  So much.  Just got through with a bible study (and oh how i love my bible study group!)  on 1,000 gifts.....and writing down gifts each day to bring them to the forefront.....NAMING each gift helps me live more thankfully.....not taking for granted the gifts God gives me.  This sweet family of mine?  Just the most precious gift.  My heart is overflowing.

Thank you Lord....thank You for giving me my sweet husbands.....then the most amazing gift of our boys.....and then sending Angie and the girls.....then our sweet Hayden Michael.....then Todd and Matthew...God.....these loves.....and i thank You!!  I pray your blessings on each and every one.....and I ask Lord Jesus that you will fill them full of Your Holy Spirit and that each one will accept Your saving grace.  I pray for us all to know and love You more and more.

Your gifts are so precious!

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Camp Mimi.....oh my goodness, how precious this time with my loves.  With Hay - it's old movies and shopping and food that she loves (which usually means Chipotle).  Such a sweet time with her and i am so so glad she loves to come and spend time with us.  The funny.....she was trying on clothes at a boutique on the square.....she always comes out and models for me.  She comes out in the darling little top - and says to me "Isn't this just so cute Mimi?  But what do you think i do with THIS?" and she holds out this huge bunch of material to the side.  It's very odd looking.....she says "do you think i tie this?" - just about that time a salesgirl comes by and Hay asks her - "this is so cute, but what do you do with this?" - the girl smiles a funny little smile and tells Hay "well, it's suppose to be a romper" - Hay had both of her legs in ONE leg of the romper.....she thought it was a top =)  We laughed so hard.  We bought the romper.....and i must say, it looks precious on her!

Then there's Camp Mimi with Avery and Addy.  I so love the way they get best friends.  We had a great time....crafts, yummy foods they love to make videos.  Late night movies - but this time they had to have "Camp Papa" for a few hours on Monday i went to Becky's for the final Bachelorette.  When i came home, they were all piled on the sofa with Papa, watching scary movies.  We painted crosses....and they did so good.  We did a little shopping too but both are quite picky.  No matter what we do, i always love time with Addy and Avery.  They are so precious in our lives.

Finally, Camp Mimi with Hayden....oh my....first through the door and he's looking for his "prize" - i always put a prize on top of his sleeping bag for him to find as he walks in.  It's a tradition.....and he knows to look for it.  This time it was construction trucks and a book.....he loved it.  We watched movies and stayed up late.....then endless hours of a cartoon he had never seen before - something i watched as a child...."Casper the friendly ghost" - i had to BEG him to watch something else...."But Mimi, i LOVE this" - we are moving....sold the couches and love seat - Mimi's usual bed for Camp Mimi when Hayden comes.....i told him we probably would need to sleep in the bedroom that night but he said "oh mimi, i LOVE my "camp" - (that's pillows and blankets all made into a soft little bed for him" - so i pushed two chairs together and we made it work.  He's so he's falling asleep, he puts his arms around me and holds me tight....what a little love.  He sat in the chair with papa too....and put his arm around his neck and held him as they watched tv.  Such a sweetie.  We had to have his fav....beans and corn on the cob.  We did crafts for the first time and he loved it....we decorated a sleep shirt - he LOVES sleep shirts.  Just a precious time with our little man.  When told he was spending two nights his said "that means i get to spend THREE days!!!"

Love that my grands love to spend time with us.  It's a gift for me....for us.  We are truly blessed.....sweetest love....sweetest kids.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

and i thought of even more....

Leo....that concert - we laughed so hard they almost threw us out....and then America....oh my.....the night before Shawn was born and on the first few rows..... SO many concerts over the years.....CSN - our fav...the concert in Victoria......Neil Young....Dave Matthews......Sting.....Doobie Brothers.....Creedance.....oh and the night we went to see Shawn Phillips......such a throw back!  So many hours listening to that music....Babies conceived to that music.....Always we have loved the house in the car.....your phone tuned to the Neil Young station as we showered.....the CSN on nights of love.....oh and we can't forget the Celtic you love it, and i do too just because you do.  Fairport Convention.....Roberta Flack.....America.....CSNY - our beginning.....our LOVE.  Did i mention the night you met my daddy and Nelda had to drive.  The first kiss at Vanderbilt.....the night i fell totally and madly in love with you.  It was that first kiss.....white t-shirt and jeans and YOU.....wonderful beautiful you.....i never doubted one minute that God sent you to me.  Just memories sweet michael of many memories.  So much love.  You are so precious in my life.

I thought of more.....

streaking.....7 months pregnant - What were we thinking?  locking myself out of our first apartment - saving your parking place.  My first "surprise" for you....that pecan pie that i covered in a cloth....only to be revealed and you laughed so hard.....the crust as big as Texas......You, hiding your head among the in the kitchen not noticing for the longest time.....the turkey that was cooked with the plastic in the getting up from the table - throwing up - and i think of all the meals you ate....with a smile on your face....probably facing food poisoning!  Scaring the hiccups out of you.....oh my gosh, the night in the bus.... remember?  We laughed SO hard because we were stuck ....i loved that van.  Remember the time i nearly crashed it into the hamburger place?  You were placing your order and then i hit the gas....not paying much attention to the clutch....remember the time i just KNEW something had happened.....9 months pregnant with a 10 lb 7 oz baby boy and i ran up the hill for you because you had had a wreck.....oh my gosh, my heart just went into overdrive......The night you met my dad for the first time....and Nelda had to drive....the pineapple i sent home with you from their trip in Hawaii....oh gosh, the night you walked me to the door at Jim Miller and you asked me to marry you?  5 days after we met?  I knew....i KNEW Michael Lane Corley......i knew you were the one God made just for me.  Remember at breakfast, i was so scared what my parents would think....and at breakfast my momma said "you and Michael are going to get married, aren't you?" - that was GOD........The beautiful places we have seen together.....Banff, finally.....Italy, France, Spain....Oh my goodness, the trips we have made.  Such gifts......I have loved you more than you will ever know Michael Lane Corley.  I have loved cooking special things just to have you give me that "thumbs up" - I have loved loving you.....i have loved being your "woman child" - i have loved every moment of every day and i pray there will be many more.  You are SO precious in my life.....God just gave me the sweetest gift in YOU.  When we go to bed at night....and we say "i love you" - it means the word to me's so much more than's a LIFE...shared and are most precious in my life sweet man......God's gift!