Thursday, November 23, 2017

This day....

Thanksgiving Day 2017.  It hasn't been the best one - Michael is sick and it's sure been a long haul.  We were really looking forward to a little getaway - just the two of us - to Branson MO.  We had a three night stay already paid for in the most beautiful place - Chateau on the Lake - and it was over the top beautiful with a brook running through the entire place - decorated for Christmas like crazy....luxury hotel, 5 star.  We broke up the drive there by going to see Annette and Bill and spending the night with them in Pine Ridge.  We had a great visit and then off for the 4 hour drive to Branson.  We got there late afternoon, showered, dressed and went down to the bar for wine - ended up ordering dinner there because it was just so peaceful and beautiful.  About 1:30 in the morning, Michael woke up sick....really sick.  His first words to me "Please don't be mad at me" - i couldn't understand why in the world?  He said "I'm Sick!" - i know he must feel like every vacation, he comes down sick - but it's not his fault!  Well, sick went to worse and worse.  He stayed in the room the entire stay - and we were both hoping he would get over it.  In the deep part of my heart though, i was so afraid it wasn't just a bug....i didn't get it and i totally should have with shared drinks, kisses and all....but as i was packing the car to leave, he asked me to ask about a Care Now close by....long story short, we ended up in the ER and admitted to the hospital.  He had a small bowel blockage.  We were there for 3 nights and then the LONG drive home.  That was 4 days ago....and he's still so sick.  We can't see a doc for a week.....i just don't know if we can wait that long.  He's so sick.

But this day....we are headed to Frisco shortly to spend it with our precious family.  I guess i am getting old....but "things" just aren't important anymore.....the commercialization of Christmas - ALREADY - can you say even in SEPTEMBER? - is really making me sick.  That seems to be all it is now.  People running crazy, buying buying buying.....forgetting all about the sweet baby we celebrate.  This day.....this day i am SO thankful for my family.  Relationships are what matters most. First of all, that relationship we have with Christ.....i pray that so hard for everyone in my family....hold Him close you guys.....it's what we are made for!  Second my relationship with my sweet hubby and my family.....and my friends.  God i thank You this day ....and always....for the precious family you put me in.....and since then the ones You have placed in my life.  Oh how i would love to go back with a do-over....knowing what i know now.  Goodness, i wasted time.  Goodness, i missed moments and opportunities.  The fast pace of life, the yearnings for "things" - robbed me of so much.  This day i purpose to live and lean into the moment.....thankful for every blessed day You give me.  I purpose to appreciate EACH one in my family and my friends too Lord....realizing, that each one is a gift from YOU.  Thank You Lord for my Michael....i pray so hard Lord Jesus that You will place Your mighty healing hands on him and heal his body now.  It is the desire of my heart Lord.

Thank You Jesus....for this day.  Thank You for calling my name and keeping me close.  You are my amazing Father.....creator of my heart - Author of my story.  Help me magnify You with all i have and all i am Lord.  I love You.

Thursday, May 25, 2017

just checking in....

Haven't written in a while....just checking in.  It's been a whirlwind few months!  Totally gutted the kitchen and did all new.....also new paint and tall baseboards, crown in the living, dining, hallway, sunroom.  Looks really good and feel SO good.  Heath and Fox Chase were really show places.....and we bought them mostly for the family - the kids.  Had to have a pool.....lots of big show.  With both the kids having pools now - our house wasn't the draw it used to be.  With their busy schedules and sports and work etc, coming to spend weekends had kinda come to an end too.  So this house is a HOME.  No pool, just comfortable and the VIEW.....the VIEW.  LOVE LOVE LOVE the lake view.....and LOVE LOVE LOVE this neighborhood.  The Gillilands, across the alley, such a sweet surprise.  New friends.  We take turns having each other over for dinner - then there's the "Lane" thing going on.....just a sweet surprise!  Thank you Lord.....sweetest gifts you give us and this home is one of them.  Also, the view - thank you for that view.  It reminds me each and every day of Your majesty.

The kids are doing SO good....their careers are taking off like gang busters.  I miss them though.  Because of all the work, the many hats they wear - we don't see them often.  Makes me so sad.  But i remember.....i remember those days and just how busy they are.  I totally understand....just trying now to find a way to get us all under one roof at least a couple of times a month.  I think they are all in....just hope we can make it happen now.

School is almost out.  Haley is already home and now back in Oklahoma for the summer....working and taking classes.  Wishing i had contacted her sooner.....wanted to take her shopping for her new place.  Hopefully she will be home soon for a visit and we can go.....a mini "Camp Mimi".  Addy and Avery are ready for summer.  Addy was invited to play in a tourney in Florida in a couple of weeks.....with a team she's hoping to join.  Such a great opportunity!  She's so talented....has no idea of just how talented she is.  Praying for her confidence.  Love that she's so humble.....but praying she will be stronger and more confident as she learns more and more from the new coaching.  Avery is working so hard on art work.....getting ready for Booker T next year.  So proud of her for getting in.  God has really gifted that sweet girl.  Can't wait to see what plans He has for her.  I pray so hard her heart will soften toward Him - that she will come to know PERSONALLY His saving grace.  Hayden.....oh my goodness, that sweet boy.  He's done really SO well in school....he's learned so much.  His teacher was just perfect.  He played baseball again......coach pitch.  Cannot believe how much better he did this past season.  Angie is taking him to a chiropractor and it's helping him - his gait when he runs has improved tons.  He's hitting the ball well too.  Such a cutie pie.  Audrey and Todd.....doing GREAT.  Todd has started a new business with a friend and they are doing great.  Audrey is the best little momma ever.  That little boy has turned her heart upside down and i just see such a healing in Audrey.  I see REAL JOY, i HEAR REAL JOY......just such a turnaround for Audie and answered prayer for her sweet life.  Hopefully we will have a wedding in the near future.  They seem to be so happy.  And then there's Matthew.....oh my gosh, that boy melts my heart.  He's is just adorable.....and he can say "Mimi" and Papa" - and just melts me on the spot.  He's so smart....so happy.....soooooo precious.  Can't wait to see what God has planned for that sweet one's life!

Just blessed.  So much.  Just got through with a bible study (and oh how i love my bible study group!)  on 1,000 gifts.....and writing down gifts each day to bring them to the forefront.....NAMING each gift helps me live more thankfully.....not taking for granted the gifts God gives me.  This sweet family of mine?  Just the most precious gift.  My heart is overflowing.

Thank you Lord....thank You for giving me my sweet husbands.....then the most amazing gift of our boys.....and then sending Angie and the girls.....then our sweet Hayden Michael.....then Todd and Matthew...God.....these gifts.....my heart....my loves.....and i thank You!!  I pray your blessings on each and every one.....and I ask Lord Jesus that you will fill them full of Your Holy Spirit and that each one will accept Your saving grace.  I pray for us all to know and love You more and more.

Your gifts are so precious!

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Camp Mimi.....oh my goodness, how precious this time with my loves.  With Hay - it's old movies and shopping and food that she loves (which usually means Chipotle).  Such a sweet time with her and i am so so glad she loves to come and spend time with us.  The funny.....she was trying on clothes at a boutique on the square.....she always comes out and models for me.  She comes out in the darling little top - and says to me "Isn't this just so cute Mimi?  But what do you think i do with THIS?" and she holds out this huge bunch of material to the side.  It's very odd looking.....she says "do you think i tie this?" - just about that time a salesgirl comes by and Hay asks her - "this is so cute, but what do you do with this?" - the girl smiles a funny little smile and tells Hay "well, it's suppose to be a romper" - Hay had both of her legs in ONE leg of the romper.....she thought it was a top =)  We laughed so hard.  We bought the romper.....and i must say, it looks precious on her!

Then there's Camp Mimi with Avery and Addy.  I so love the way they get along.....like best friends.  We had a great time....crafts, yummy foods they love to make videos.  Late night movies - but this time they had to have "Camp Papa" for a few hours on Monday night.....as i went to Becky's for the final Bachelorette.  When i came home, they were all piled on the sofa with Papa, watching scary movies.  We painted crosses....and they did so good.  We did a little shopping too but both are quite picky.  No matter what we do, i always love time with Addy and Avery.  They are so precious in our lives.

Finally, Camp Mimi with Hayden....oh my....first through the door and he's looking for his "prize" - i always put a prize on top of his sleeping bag for him to find as he walks in.  It's a tradition.....and he knows to look for it.  This time it was construction trucks and a book.....he loved it.  We watched movies and stayed up late.....then endless hours of a cartoon he had never seen before - something i watched as a child...."Casper the friendly ghost" - i had to BEG him to watch something else...."But Mimi, i LOVE this" - we are moving....sold the couches and love seat - Mimi's usual bed for Camp Mimi when Hayden comes.....i told him we probably would need to sleep in the bedroom that night but he said "oh mimi, i LOVE my "camp" - (that's pillows and blankets all made into a soft little bed for him" - so i pushed two chairs together and we made it work.  He's so sweet....as he's falling asleep, he puts his arms around me and holds me tight....what a little love.  He sat in the chair with papa too....and put his arm around his neck and held him as they watched tv.  Such a sweetie.  We had to have his fav....beans and corn on the cob.  We did crafts for the first time and he loved it....we decorated a sleep shirt - he LOVES sleep shirts.  Just a precious time with our little man.  When told he was spending two nights his said "that means i get to spend THREE days!!!"

Love that my grands love to spend time with us.  It's a gift for me....for us.  We are truly blessed.....sweetest love....sweetest kids.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

and i thought of even more....

Leo....that concert - we laughed so hard they almost threw us out....and then America....oh my.....the night before Shawn was born and on the first few rows..... SO pregnant.....so many concerts over the years.....CSN - our fav...the concert in Victoria......Neil Young....Dave Matthews......Sting.....Doobie Brothers.....Creedance.....oh and the night we went to see Shawn Phillips......such a throw back!  So many hours listening to that music....Babies conceived to that music.....Always we have loved the SOUND.....coffee house in the car.....your phone tuned to the Neil Young station as we showered.....the CSN on nights of love.....oh and we can't forget the Celtic music....how you love it, and i do too just because you do.  Fairport Convention.....Roberta Flack.....America.....CSNY - our beginning.....our LOVE.  Did i mention the night you met my daddy and Nelda had to drive.  The first kiss at Vanderbilt.....the night i fell totally and madly in love with you.  It was that first kiss.....white t-shirt and jeans and YOU.....wonderful beautiful you.....i never doubted one minute that God sent you to me.  Just memories sweet michael of mine......so many memories.  So much love.  You are so precious in my life.

I thought of more.....

streaking.....7 months pregnant - What were we thinking?  locking myself out of our first apartment - saving your parking place.  My first "surprise" for you....that pumpkin pie that i covered in a cloth....only to be revealed and you laughed so hard.....the crust as big as Texas......You, hiding your head among the canisters....me in the kitchen not noticing for the longest time.....the turkey that was cooked with the plastic in the middle....you getting up from the table - throwing up - and i think of all the meals you ate....with a smile on your face....probably facing food poisoning!  Scaring the hiccups out of you.....oh my gosh, the night in the bus.... remember?  We laughed SO hard because we were stuck ....i loved that van.  Remember the time i nearly crashed it into the hamburger place?  You were placing your order and then i hit the gas....not paying much attention to the clutch....remember the time i just KNEW something had happened.....9 months pregnant with a 10 lb 7 oz baby boy and i ran up the hill for you because you had had a wreck.....oh my gosh, my heart just went into overdrive......The night you met my dad for the first time....and Nelda had to drive....the pineapple i sent home with you from their trip in Hawaii....oh gosh, the night you walked me to the door at Jim Miller and you asked me to marry you?  5 days after we met?  I knew....i KNEW Michael Lane Corley......i knew you were the one God made just for me.  Remember at breakfast, i was so scared what my parents would think....and at breakfast my momma said "you and Michael are going to get married, aren't you?" - that was GOD........The beautiful places we have seen together.....Banff, finally.....Italy, France, Spain....Oh my goodness, the trips we have made.  Such gifts......I have loved you more than you will ever know Michael Lane Corley.  I have loved cooking special things just to have you give me that "thumbs up" - I have loved loving you.....i have loved being your "woman child" - i have loved every moment of every day and i pray there will be many more.  You are SO precious in my life.....God just gave me the sweetest gift in YOU.  When we go to bed at night....and we say "i love you" - it means the word to me Michael....it's so much more than words.....it's a LIFE...shared and loved......you are most precious in my life sweet man......God's gift!
This man.....what can i say?  43 years and a few months ago (December 16th, 1972) i met him.  Really and truly i met him the summer before.....but he was so shy - we didn't talk much.  i laced us his boots though =)  But on December 16th, 1972, my life changed.  God brought our paths together and i can never thank God enough for the gift of Michael Lane Corley.  Little did we know 43 years all that God had in store for us.  Michael, you know me better than ANYone in this whole wide world.....you know my fears, you know my joys....you know my hurts and you know my favorite things.....you know me better than anyone - and the miracle of that is that you still love me.  You have seen me at my best....and you have seen me at my all time very worst....but through it all, you continue to love your "woman child".  I can never tell you how much i love you.....it just can't be explained in words.  You are such a precious gift to me and i thank God often for the gift of you.  We have been through so much.....early marriage - the fights........the bear skin rugs....the water beds.....the cooking disasters....the first apartment....the first Christmas there.....getting pregnant.....all the stuff that goes with that first pregnancy....having you order shrimp when you were through and i was not....but too embarrassed to order for myself =)  The birth of Shawn.....that entire day of labor.....the minute we became parents....the joy - the fear.....we were babies having a baby (but somehow, some way we did great....because Shawn...and Chase....are precious men).....late night trips to Braum's for german chocolate shakes after, well, you know.....and Shawn, in my lap, dipping his face into the shake....and remember the night we heard him crying and we went in and he had thrown up in his bed and i guess his face was planted in it - because when we ran into the room, he raised his little head and all we could see - two eyes staring at us through the throw up.  I just lot all the baby weight from Shawn and we found out we were pregnant with Chase.....not planned, but the sweetest surprise and the most precious joy in our lives.  Our first home.....moving into that apartment for a short time.....then our first home.  The night i woke you up at midnight, shaking for all i was worth, because my water broke - and then we laughed uncontrollably.  Dropping Shawn at my parents and the rush to the hospital....barely in time to see Chase come into this world.  Then there was that....Chase crying constantly.....3 days and nights in Children's medical....you at Roy's finding exactly what we needed to help his pain.....the miracle change in Chase.  Raising our boys....all that goes with that.  Highs and lows....joys and sorrows....fears and tears....precious moments with our boys.....Padre Island and finding out we had 3 more hours in that small van with 9 people!  Christmas - pee wee football.....baseball.....team mom and you the video and picture guy.....Changing from banking to video.....all the weddings.....raising teenagers.....scary times.....worrisome times....but so much fun watching them play sports.  Weddings, grandchildren....oh gosh, remember the time we brought daddy home from the hospital....it was mother's day....i can't remember why he was there, but we came home and told the boys "we will just celebrate another time" - and Chase saying no way....they were coming to mom and dad's.....And they gave us that book with "firsts" Do you remember the first time you drove a car....do you remember the first time you heard the Beatles....do you remember the first time (with the sonogram picture) became grandparents!  Oh my gosh, we all hooted and hollered!  Such a sweet surprise on mother's day.  The birth of Addison Lane...oh my gosh, i will never forget holding her for the first time and she looked at me and goodness.....i melted.  The times we kept her when they had to travel....4 months old and they told us "she will wake up for a bottle....but just be so quiet....DONT look at her or talk to her ....heat the bottle and she will go right back to sleep....Oh my goodness, that precious baby girl did wake up and those big eyes stared at me. It was all i could do not to talk and play with her.....and then remember.....we were shopping with Dian and Ed - i think we were in Crate and Barrel.....and my phone rang.  It was Debbie.  She tells me she "thinks i might be pregnant" - i am like "What do you mean you THINK????" and she tells me the tests came back positive....i remember thinking to myself that is something a daughter needs to tell her parents personally.....so i try so hard to contain my joy and i hand the phone to Dian.....she squeals when she hears and then we tell you and Ed and all four of us jump up and down.....no telling WHAT the people in the store thought.....Then the sweet birth of Avery Grace....such a little joy.  I remember when she was tiny.....brand new.....and Deb and Shawn asked us not to hold her a LOT.....that they wanted Avery to be able to be "put down" at times.....well, one night we were all there and they put Avery down for the night.....and she was really squirming in the bed and making little sounds that Dian and i thought might need to be addressed.  I picked her up, and i sat in the rocking chair with her and rocked her and rocked her......in walks Deb....i am CAUGHT.  WE are CAUGHT.  I can remember baby sitting one night - we were at Shawn and Deb's house.....Deb and Shawn had strict rules....to bed at a certain time.....and we let Avery stay up late that night....and you went to get ice cream for us.  Avery and i sat on the porch waiting for you to get home and we made up a little song about papa going to get ice cream and Avery staying up late.  It seems we just broke all the rules =)  That's what grandparents do, right?????  Dance recitals, sitting through heck to finally see the stars of the show =)  Our little stars......So many sweet times with those two.  Then the heartache of divorce - I have never seen our boys lower than that.  Worried this momma to the core.  Thankfully, as time goes by - Chase finds the love of his life and we get THREE precious lives in our family.....the SWEETEST time....remember the engagement?  Oh my goodness, that was so fun.....how i loved seeing Chase going to so much trouble to surprise her.....Meeting Angie....meeting Audie and Hay.....blending our families......God answered prayers.  Then Shawn.....broken heart, broken trust.....and our broken hearts because of the divorce.  For years we weren't allowed to mention Deb's name.  I prayed so hard for it all....Avery was caught in the middle.....and then, God's sweet answer to prayers.....Shawn was able to put it all somewhere....i am not sure where.....but he and Deb were able to come to terms and make it the best situation for Avery.  Both the boys have done what it takes (and Angie too....bless her sweet heart) to put the girls first and make amends.  It's the best thing for Avery and Addy.....I am SO thankful for Angie and the girls in Chase's life....i am still to this day praying for Shawn....and if it's Deb....i hope they both realize it.....if it's not, i pray for a precious Christian woman to come into their lives and share this precious gift of life and share it with Shawn and Avery.  Audrey.... the scary times with the precious one....SO broken from her dad walking out....all the hurts as we traveled the road with Audrey.....And can i say this.....how PRECIOUS is that sweet baby boy Matthew and the pure JOY that has filled our Audrey Marie?  Thank you Lord.....You took the situation and You made WONDERFUL.  Thank you Lord....this is back tracking....but the first time i met Haley.....it was at Lakepointe's fall festival.....she had been at a sleepover and was SO tired.  I was really worried because we were meeting our granddaughter for the first time.  I knew that.  WE knew that.  She was so quiet and shy.  There were rides....and we all got on a ride - me next to Hay - at the end....i got out, and i offered a hand to Hay to help her....she took my hand and never let go.....she kept my hand in hers..... my heart melted at that point and she was OURS.  Oh - then the sweetest engagement......how precious was our Chase as he did so much to surprise Angie.  Marriage.....Cancun.....sweetest time.  Then Christmas.....at the mall, doing Christmas shopping with Chase....a tradition.....and he suggested asking Angie to join us for lunch.  She comes into California Pizza Kitchen looking GREEN.....as we sit down, she sits next to me and Chase across from us.  We start to order.....I look down and see rubber bracelets on Angie.....HUMMMMM, i know what those are for because we just returned from a cruise...those are for nausea.....i look down and mention them.....she has their caught in deer headlights look.....she looks at Chase...i ask what they are for.....and then i tell her i know what they are for....they are for nausea.....Chase looks at Angie....Angie loos at Chase.....and i look at Angie......she spills " Mimi i am pregnant and sick as a dog" - SWEETEST time......Precious times.....and then Christmas......we open a gift and it's a football jersey - a little bitty one......it's a BOY!!!!!  Angie so sick....Christmas and pics of Angie so sick.....i remember she ate my guacamole like a banshee......only thing that tasted good....birth of our sweet Hayden.....Hayden MICHAEL....papa...that's YOUR name.  Sweetest baby boy.  Life goes on....Camp Mimi's.....Hayden and sandwiches cut with cookie cutters....Avery and Addy and the mall....crafts.....sleepovers in the media room.....Hay and shopping.....sweetest times with my babies.....all this Michael......We have SO much....we have SO much to be thankful for.  Oh and then we find out our sweet Audie is going to have a baby.....we have worried about our Audrey.....never seemed to be happy....not completely......but then Matthew was born.....and i have never seen such joy.....Audrey is complete.  That baby boy made all the difference in the world.  Oh Michael.....our sweet life......we have been blessed beyond measure.  I can't even tell you how much i love you. I look at you and i still melt.  I kiss you....and that sweet touch of your lips turns me into mush.  I think of all the trips we have taken.....Italy.....France.....but OH Canada.....i have wanted to take you to Banff since i met you.  What a precious trip.....i got to share that joy with you.  We have shared SO much......goodness, i am so blessed by the gift of you my Michael Lane Corley.  I am SO gifted with the life we have lived.  I remember asking God if it was the right thing to do.....when i married you, i didn't know you at ALL......and then driving around that day of our wedding.....driving around and asking God "what in the world am i doing?  I don't even KNOW this man" - and then His sweet answer to me on KVIL.....the rain blared....." My name is Michael i have a nickel i have a nickel all shiny and new.....i'm going to marry a girl named Cindy....that's what i am going to do!" - Words of confirmation.....but i knew Michael.....i KNEW..... the minute your lips touched mine.....in the softest, SWEETEST kiss ever in the whole world....i KNEW.....and that night....December 16th, 1972.....i drove home saying to God.....this is the man i want to marry.....this is the love of my life.  YOU were my gift from God Michael Lane Corley.......God made you especially for ME.  Our life, our love......just the most precious gift from God.  I love you beyond measure......i love you MORE than words can say.  My heart was made for yours.......My life was made to share with you.  I can never thank you enough for loving me.....loving your "woman child" - loving me even though you know me with all the warts and ugly parts......you see the beauty.....you see the LOVE......thank you Michael Lane Corley.....thank you for the lives we shared together......thank you for loving me in spite of me.....thank you for the sweetest love.....the most passionate love.....the most precious love i could have ever experienced on this earth.  I haven't even mentioned our eternal life.....our eternal love for once another......i am SO thankful that we just GREW together in the Lord......we met....we went into our spirit life the same.....remember, you have always said that from that first meeting.....the meeting on Vanderbilt - you saw God's spirit in me.....and you were drawn to it......i was SO far from God at that point in my life.....but God let my love for Him shine....and God let your love for Him see that love....and we met in the middle.....we were babies in Christ....but oh Michael....we have grown!  I look back at our lives and see God's hand in it all......He guided us to love Him more and more.....for grow in Him, more and more.  Goodness, through your cancer.....that diagnosis on my birthday.....through the year of trials and tribulations......goodness.....we grew so much in that year.....we realized dependance on HIM was all we had.  Thank HIM for guiding us through it all - for helping you through surgery.....oh my goodness.....that 11 days....brought us closer than we have ever been........drew us closer to HIM.......i wouldn't want to be any place other than by your side through it all.....and i was SO proud of you.....you face every turn with such trust....you are my hero Michael Lane Corley!  i learned so much of during that time......we both drew closer.....it drew us closer to each other but more than anything, closer to our Lord.  I love you Michael Lane Corley....more than any words can express......more than you can ever know.......more than i can even fathom......it's a love that passes all understanding....just like the love that God has for us and that we have for Him.......my love for you isn't able to be measured.   I just hope you feel it.....i hope you KNOW it.....i love you beyond all measure.  You are such a precious gift in my life.  I am not worthy......but God gifted me with you.  He just placed the most precious gift in my life on December 16th, 1972.  I will never ever forget or take for granted the sweetest present i opened on that day.....the gift of LOVE....the gift of unconditional LOVE.  You are precious in my life Michael Lane Corley.....I am forever grateful.  I am forever in love with you. You are forever the LOVE OF MY LIFE on this earth.

Monday, April 4, 2016

I looked for pics of all of our friends.....my photo shop wouldn't load.....but just tonight....just today....i have to say what my precious friends mean in our lives.  These precious friends....i couldn't make it without them.  Today i was talking to Cindy - aka Bozo - she is just so precious to me.....i can tell her anything....ANYthing in this world.  She is my twin....she is so precious to me.  This last year has been heck.....and these precious friends....so many of them....got together and PRAYED for Michael every Thursday night.....all of these friends just were THERE for us.  God you are so precious and i love the gift you gave us in our friendships.  What sweet gifts You give.  Thank you Lord.....thank you for my bestie!